i dunno wad to say...

If I got down on my knees
And pleaded to be with you
If I cross a million oceans
Just to be with you
Would you ever......let me down?
If I climbed the highest mountain
Just to hold you tight
If I said that I would loved you every single night
Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad....
It's just that worried
I'm so worried　
That you'll let me down....
So plz dun let me down....
If I swan the longest river
Just to call your name
If I said the way I felt for you
Would never change
Would you still be around?
I'm so worried tad you would let me down.....
there's a 1000 words tad i could say, but its making it go wrong...
seem so long ago u went away, n left me alone...
i remember wad u said, u were acting so strange..
maybe i was to blind to see tad u needed a change
was it something i said tad made u turn away?
but the truth remains....
do u remember the time when we were sitting together?
i was crazy abt u....nuthin i could do...
maybe its better to leave u jus alone....
banging at the old wooden door, n im crawling bak to u...
maybe i need to tell u face to face, tad i lied to u abt me being fine...
im jus running away from truth
well here i m
banging on the door, all my hands are bruised...
r u gonna let me in....?
dun tell me all ur passion had gone away....
i dun need no care for all this...
how nice tad this was jus a nightmare...
n u would be still there when i woke up...
maybe jus a smile but it has no way back...
but there was angel who called me back by grabbing my heart away...
i was lost in a lonely place...
i believe tad this is ok...
when u open up my heart n show me all ur love....
like a once in a lifetime...i wan no more goodbyes
jus walk by me n feel the way i feel....
its impossible...
a man like me so irresponsible...
im the man tad never felt ready...
dun feel nuthin, i jus feel cold~~
dun take it as if it doesn't mean a thing...
after everything i had learnt, i need to learn to stop all those begging...
so jus bring it on, anyway im jus bruised all over me...
i better learnt wad life is all abt....
u dunno cuz things ain clear...
everybody noes u dun get wad u planned...
everybody runs away from wad they dun understand...
it should all go well since u told me the truth...
ppl wish they were like everyone else.....but how hard is it for u to noe tad,i wanna be like u...
how hard is it for me to get back into ur heart?
yes i noe its the wrost thing ever if i got back...
if i wasn't such a fool, i would be right now holding ur hands...
so tad i would noe wad to say n the way to go....back to you...
i dunno how it got so crazy...
cuz u were always so amazing...
let me prove my love is true..
so u would feel the way i feel
give me one more chance...
to give my love to you...
maybe u would tell me the words to say...
cuz i dunno wad to do, wad to say n the way to go...
im jus lost in my own world, dunno wad to say anymore...
its jus like a kind of game, when it starts it would end one day...
tads jus how the way of life is...
why couldn't we jus blinfold ourself n let the game continue...
now i have nuthing to help this anymore...
i noe u dun have the love u had for me....
so i cried n plead to god tad all this could jus restart n take it as if nuthin happened..
jus like a brainwash...
now i spend my night desperetly with my whole night awaken jus to think of somethin tad could help me to get back...
close ur eyes n make a wish..
n hope this would have stayed forever n have each other now...
i dun wanna noe the reason why im like this now
let me feel the pain u feel inside...
this is a illusion!!how can i feel this way...
this ain not true...
if u ever read this, dun be sad for me, this is jus the way life is...
n u have to move on....damn! this is the part i hate the most--moving on....

NOT SAD....

唉。。。wads love? can anyone tell me....
love is something tad u feel for someone, not how u tell someone 'I LOVE U'n dun mean it.
Lost Over Variaty Enthunisamn
wads so big deal if theres a million of fishes out in the sea?? u r not gonna catch them one by one, n then let them bak in to their own little ponds....
sometimes thinking of wad love is like, i think its like 'glass', cuz when the glass is broken, even if u sticked it bak together, there would still be some cracks somewhere tad u cant see.....n its better to leave it than to hurt urself to put them bak together. but wads the point of living a life without some excitement!! why not we jus get hurt n put the glasses bak the way it was, n continue to live on wit it, its sure gonna be fun!!
loving someone does not mean going out shopping for luxury stuffs to show ur love, its the time u spend wit him/her.....

haha

omg!!math was so frinkin fun!!i kinda got high...but it was jus frinkin fun, we spent abt 50% of our time havin lesson but other times, we were telling stories, n also some jokes too!!but next was IT, we need to hand up the scholl song thingy in two weeks! im so not gonna finish it...then there come lunch where i get my detention ToT well then we went to the detention place n the F***ing teacher was so irritating!!asking us to do this n do tad...well then i was looking at ****, **** look back but i jus cant look **** in the eyes,i would jus change...anyway, then i went down to have a quick lunch n went striaght to com lab to do history...tad F****ing HX did not come so we had to do it now!!!omg we could have been done u noe....then we were 20 mins late for lesson, WOAH the relief teacher was so frinkin nice to us, he let us play cards n all kinds of fun games...oh ya, we then played heart attack!we all got pretty high!! abt tad. awwww but then come sculpture, its not tad i dun like the teacher, its jus tad i dun like sculpture!!! tad totally suck!!!
then after school i reached home,WOAH i finally got my Vr set, it was so frinkin nice, well then i swing for a few times, n its jus totally great =)

song i wrote, jus dun have the rhythm yet

look in to my eye~~~u will c...wad u mean to me...
dun tell me its not worth waiting for...=(
its all for u~~~...
look into my heart,my love has no where to hide itself..
take me as i m,i would give it up n i will sacrifice..nothin i want more
dun tell me this is not worth waiting for...
u noe its true...
day after day, it slowly pass away...
wherever u go,wadever u do, i will be right here waiting for u...
wadever it takes or how my heart breaks, i will be right here waiting...
i took for granted, all the time...
tad i thought it would last, i heard the laughter,i taste the tears...
oh cant u see it!!u got me going crazy...
i dunno how it got 2gether? but its jus ...
ppl said im crazy cuz love had blind me....
i dun care who u r, where u from, wad u did, as long as **** me
doesn' matter if its right or wrong....
the clock is ticking...tick tock tick tock
i realise wad a fool i was...
change the color of the sky to make me feel alike...
wad abt now, wad abt today n wonder abt tmrw,wad if im making me more than i was meant to be...
before its too late.....

hey supp~~ppl

hey u ppl out there reading my blog,(only if u care for me, n tad why u read it then)thx alot, for being so careful for me, it was jus rlly nice havin u ppl as my friends, i was glad to noe u ppl, i appreciate the care u had shown, i rrly do, well, im jus here to thank u all for being so caring for me....=) thx alot

aww...my arm n chest frinkin hurt...

awww...man... yesterday i was at my karate lesson(i haven't been there for so long...) anyway, i was called up to fight a guy sightly bigger size than me, aww...this guy is frinkin killin me, well it was cuz i had bad defence, but he was pretty hurt as well, i think he had couple of tear awaiting to be out...well then i was called to continue, then here come this 20+ old dude, damn his body was so hard n he wasn't wearin any protection guard or something( we wore tad in case we hurt someone) well tad guy was ask to jus defence, well then i started hitting him then he hit bak but damn!! its wit his bare hands..(aww...man tads so hurting...) well then the fight ended, i was sitting beside the teacher, n teacher taught me how to defence the rite way...
now im havin bruce on my arm n chest, then it hurts when i played golf today ToT

finally...yeah!!=)

finally...woah!!finally i brought my golf to a higher standard...yeah!
started wit a few bogeys then a par, but got one birdie(3ft. putt). damn i got 5 birdie chances, two was abt 20ft. and the other two were 4ft. n 6ft.
anyway, wit nice weather n great players, i shot 88, i noe i noe its not tad good, but i dun c u coming up wit a better score huh(to ppl who dun like golf)

im like a frinkin joke for everyone...

damn!!! i hate this kind of feelin, where everyone laugh at me. today at karate lesson, i was called up so the teacher could demonstrate wad we r gonna learn next, well, i got bitten, n guess wad, its like a frinkin joke to everyone, no one even ask how i felt abt it, its jus tad no one cares for how i felt.
oh well, if i need to get u ppl attention, i need to do stupid things to get u interested, i hate tad, y wouldn't u ppl jus show some care to everyone huh, everyone is a human, y do we need to treat each other tad way, i rather be wit a friend tad is dumd but cares for me than a 'cool' friend who does not even give a damn abt wad i felt...
yup tads jus how i felt, i jus need some place to release....

i read this cpuple of years ago...

always aim for the sky, because even if u did not reach the sky, u would get the clouds.
well u were like the sky tad i could never reach...

why r teachers such carefreaks!!!

teachers take control of almost everything!!! damn!!! but we do stuffs tad they dunno, hehehe, but anyway, y r they caring so much... as long as our test r good wad else can they say! wth! but ya ya ya we dun do well for our test, but wad ever, do u ppl really think u grow up as a math dude or something... or even becoming the next albert enstein huh, ok ya maybe some do but most of us would work on other stuff arent we huh?
but wad to do, our parents paid for us to go to the school, so we jus better be good n dun make much trouble... hope so...

why...

why do ppl make blog???
why r there only boys n girls???
how did they create internet???
how did they think of wireless???
how did human create language???
why r there gays or lesbian??? i noe i noe they made their own choice but y did they make it?
if u noe the answer for this plz answer...=) i jus wan to noe
there would be a prize...if u believe haha

the wrost day ever...maybe...

damn!! this morning i was playin bball wit couple of friends, but we had forgotten abt the time!!! n we were late for 20 mins in CHINESE!! but the problem is, Ms Johnson caught us, n i think she is pretty nice, so i think she did not do any disciplinary action agaisnt us, woah tad was lucky... all we did was, getting some talkinfrom teachers n writting some apology letter to those teacher.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! i thought i was so dead but it came out to be quite ok...hehe
yay n i noe i rockkkk but jus dun do wad i had done, its not as easy as u think...

the first time i make a blog...

damn... i thought makin this thing would be like takin a long long long time to make, but woohooo it took me 5 mins, but if u took a shorter time than jus...SHUT UP!!!
n u ppl r jus showing off how fast u could do this, ya ya wadeva, i still rockkkk haha

woah!!! rockets won!!!

hey yo!! we all noe ROCKETS rock!!! so bak off... u c they frinkin won blazzer by 30 points so shut up abt ur comments tad they cant pass first round.
alright :) they r finally gonna pass first round!! XD